[ Casey feels like he might turn to goo at any second, the way she's looking at him right now. It's so ... cute. It makes him feel hot and cold and numb and on the verge of bursting all at the same time.
He makes the barest of shrugs and shakes his head. ]
Something about me? That'll help you drift right off to sleep.
[ she grins, though it's still kind of hidden by his shoulder, then she pauses, trying to think of something. ]
-- I'm not even sure what to say. I don't talk about myself a lot anymore. Life becomes a lot less about you when you've been a you for a few centuries.
I'm probably a thousand years old, maybe two? I don't really remember much past the last five or six lifetimes. You sort of- It gets fuzzy. But I've learned that as I get older, those other lives start to clear up. Like your mind learns how to stretch back a little further. I only know of six different lifetimes, but I know I've had more. It's something I can feel in my gut, even if I can't remember.
[ it's tricky trying to talk it out. it just makes her think about how much she can't remember. which is weird. ]
Basically I'll be around forever but I might not remember most of it. But that's okay. [ it actually is okay. weird! but okay. ] I was a little reckless, the last couple of lifetimes. You get cocky when you know you'll be back. But this is different, even when I was a really little kid I decided it would be different. I like how things are going way more this time.
Wow. I'm only sixteen, like, really just sixteen, and I don't know ... that must seem so ... insignificant to you at this point.
[ If he were a couple thousand years old, the small number 16 would mean nothing. It's almost a non-number until you hit three-digits.
It's kind of ... a change in perspective. It makes you wonder about things. He wonders about the lives she had before this one. He wonders if she'd had grand adventures or if she favoured one of her past lives more than others. Did she marry? Did she find her soulmate in a previous life?
He's not even sure why he starts voicing some of these questions aloud. Maybe it's the sleep deprivation and the adrenaline still coursing through him from the full moon. It's a small, wild recklessness from his wolf-side. ]
Did you fall in love in the other lifetimes you remember? [ He shakes his head. ] I mean, did you have a family? Can you have a family?
[ Can phoenixes have little baby phoenixes?
He should probably stop thinking about this stuff ... but it's keeping him awake, at least. ]
You don't have to answer if you don't want to. It's probably really personal ...
It is personal, but that's okay. I've been in love, yes. And I can have a family, too. I'm immortal, but I age the same as anyone else. My lifespan lasts the same as a human's, only mine has a reset button once all is said and done. And it's not- It's not as painful as you'd think. I've been lucky to fall in love before, in those other lives.
[ though it's a wonder she even let him talk that much, sitting up a bit just so she can look at him properly, still close enough to keep her voice quiet. both of her hands are holding onto his now, thumbs smoothing over his knuckles ]
I've technically been around a long time but I'm still just sixteen, too. This lifetime is the only one that matters to me. And you're a part of that. There's nothing insignificant about you, Casey. [ she grins, nervous but still sincere, happy to tell him these things ] You've kinda been the best part of this life so far. In, um, a long time. Never ever doubt that, okay?
[ Case's response is quiet but deep-felt. He can feel the sincerity of her words hit him in the gut, tightening around his heart and giving it a good squeeze.
He likes the way she's holding his hands right now, the movement of her thumbs gentle and coaxing, reassuring in a way that feels real. It's not just some nicety or her trying to convince him of something that isn't true. It is true and it's something he can believe.
And he does believe her. Of course he does. She has no reason to lie, not with him.
He meets her eyes and stares into them the way he's probably seen in countless dumb Hollywood romance films. There's no musical soundtrack, no 80's love ballad crooning in the background or anything like that, but there's a connection here; there's something here. Knowing that Chuck has lived thousands of years, more lifetimes than he can imagine, it doesn't scare him as much as he thinks it should.
This lifetime is the only one that matters to me, she said. ]
[ she knows that look. she's pretty sure she's returning that look. it makes her heart beat a little harder and her eyes are bright because she almost wants to laugh just 'cause it beats feeling nervous. but she is nervous, a little bit. she's physically tired but emotionally and mentally she's got this energy that feels like it's about to bust out of her chest. she's leaning closer, she can feel it. she's not leaning in perse but she sits up a little straighter, scoots her butt forward even though there's hardly any room there between them already with their legs where they are but she just
she wants to kiss him.
that's all she really wants.
but he has something to say and she's not going to take that away from him, even if it would be easier than waiting for things like words be said. a hey wait I think I know what you're going to say, I want to say it too, here's what I'm feeling sort of gesture so they don't have to say all those words. she bites her lip instead. that's a reasonable alternative. ]
[ Is it what Chuck expected to hear? Well, he has no idea.
Is he supposed to just go for it and kiss her if he wants to? He has no idea.
So he asks. He asks because it seems like the polite thing to do and he's never actually done this before, so asking permission feels like ... well, a good start.
He thinks whatever he's feeling right now is echoed in the way she touches him, the way she moves in just a fraction closer towards him (he's a wolf, he can sense the most minute movements of others), the way she's looking at him. So asking doesn't seem like an out-of-the-question request. ]
[ okay she does finally laugh, but it's more like a sigh of relief while smiling and nodding, a huff of a breath before she's reaching up with her hand that isn't tangled up with his to slide it to the back of his neck and pull him in just that little bit more. no chill, no patience. just kissing. finally. it's nothing too wild, but she favors his bottom lip and kisses him for a little longer than maybe most first kisses between two people should go, but again. no chill.
he's just so cute and so sweet and so funny
and there's no pressure in any way to be something she's not. he doesn't mind that she's bossy and opinionated and overprotective. doesn't make her feel like she needs to hide those parts of her. he lets her read to him and sit close when they're studying. he studies with her.
and maybe they're still learning about each other, maybe she needs to slow her roll and be smarter than to fall head over heels in crush with the new guy. ..not so new anymore, but newish. she should know better, see the signs of when she's getting caught up in someone too quick, but she can't see it as a bad thing, not this time. she's been burned ( hah ) before, but Casey wouldn't. he's not that guy. she can feel it in every bone in her body that he wouldn't hurt her. and god, that means she can't be the one to mess this up. she's been through more than a fair share of lifetimes but she's still very capable of dropping the ball, disappointing someone. but she can't do that to him, she won't.
she won't.
she'll just keep kissing him for a little longer instead, then keep her forehead pressed to his once she does decide it's time for it to be over. still sharing his space, still playing with his hair a bit at the nape of his neck. still smiling a little bit even while she catches her breath. ]
[ Casey isn't even sure what happens in the next few moments; it's like his brain can't keep up and he's running purely on instinct. It's not unlike some of his moments as a wolf.
He leans in to meet her lips, letting her take the lead because she clearly knows what she's doing and he's (quickly) learning from her. It feels nice. It feels awesome, actually, his breath caught in his throat, his heart pounding in his chest like it might sprout wings and float him away.
He finds his hands winding into her hair too, his kiss deepening until they both have to come up for air. She leans her forehead against his and he almost wants to laugh; he's so elated.
Chuck is so, so amazing. He kind of wants to shout it on mountain-tops.
(But he won't. He's not going to be that embarrassing.) ]
[ like she doesn't know. like she can't tell by the way he's staying close, hand in her hair. she moves her face just to bump his nose with hers, unwilling to quit being affectionate now that they've opened those floodgates. she knows she should, she actually really needs to get back to her dorm before her roommates wake up and realize she's not there, but instead she's sitting her giving eskimo kisses to the boy she likes.
she gives him another small kiss before she does sit back again, letting her hands both fall into their laps now, that shared space between them. she shakes her bangs out of her eyes, blushing a bit, but she's hoping the light is dim enough to hide it. maybe. but ah, maybe she doesn't mind if he can see it. ]
[ Casey honestly can't stop grinning, his face just permanently fixed into something of a smile, all bright and sunshine-y and not at all tired anymore.
His fingers find hers without hesitation this time, winding into comfortable knots. He never wants to let her go. ]
Very good wow.
[ As far as first kisses go, it's definitely one for the books. He leans back against the pillows, right beside her and it's like - man, it's like he doesn't want to do anything else, he doesn't want time to pass if only so he can live in this very moment for the rest of ever. ]
I know it's gonna be morning soon but ... can you just stay here for a bit longer?
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Date: 2017-05-23 05:40 am (UTC)He makes the barest of shrugs and shakes his head. ]
Anything. Tell me something about you.
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Date: 2017-05-24 02:54 am (UTC)[ she grins, though it's still kind of hidden by his shoulder, then she pauses, trying to think of something. ]
-- I'm not even sure what to say. I don't talk about myself a lot anymore. Life becomes a lot less about you when you've been a you for a few centuries.
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Date: 2017-05-24 03:23 am (UTC)[ He must seem like a fetus to her if she's got so many years on him. ]
How were you first born?
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Date: 2017-05-24 03:42 am (UTC)[ it's tricky trying to talk it out. it just makes her think about how much she can't remember. which is weird. ]
Basically I'll be around forever but I might not remember most of it. But that's okay. [ it actually is okay. weird! but okay. ] I was a little reckless, the last couple of lifetimes. You get cocky when you know you'll be back. But this is different, even when I was a really little kid I decided it would be different. I like how things are going way more this time.
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Date: 2017-05-24 04:46 am (UTC)[ If he were a couple thousand years old, the small number 16 would mean nothing. It's almost a non-number until you hit three-digits.
It's kind of ... a change in perspective. It makes you wonder about things. He wonders about the lives she had before this one. He wonders if she'd had grand adventures or if she favoured one of her past lives more than others. Did she marry? Did she find her soulmate in a previous life?
He's not even sure why he starts voicing some of these questions aloud. Maybe it's the sleep deprivation and the adrenaline still coursing through him from the full moon. It's a small, wild recklessness from his wolf-side. ]
Did you fall in love in the other lifetimes you remember? [ He shakes his head. ] I mean, did you have a family? Can you have a family?
[ Can phoenixes have little baby phoenixes?
He should probably stop thinking about this stuff ... but it's keeping him awake, at least. ]
You don't have to answer if you don't want to. It's probably really personal ...
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Date: 2017-05-24 06:52 am (UTC)[ though it's a wonder she even let him talk that much, sitting up a bit just so she can look at him properly, still close enough to keep her voice quiet. both of her hands are holding onto his now, thumbs smoothing over his knuckles ]
I've technically been around a long time but I'm still just sixteen, too. This lifetime is the only one that matters to me. And you're a part of that. There's nothing insignificant about you, Casey. [ she grins, nervous but still sincere, happy to tell him these things ] You've kinda been the best part of this life so far. In, um, a long time. Never ever doubt that, okay?
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Date: 2017-05-25 06:07 am (UTC)[ Case's response is quiet but deep-felt. He can feel the sincerity of her words hit him in the gut, tightening around his heart and giving it a good squeeze.
He likes the way she's holding his hands right now, the movement of her thumbs gentle and coaxing, reassuring in a way that feels real. It's not just some nicety or her trying to convince him of something that isn't true. It is true and it's something he can believe.
And he does believe her. Of course he does. She has no reason to lie, not with him.
He meets her eyes and stares into them the way he's probably seen in countless dumb Hollywood romance films. There's no musical soundtrack, no 80's love ballad crooning in the background or anything like that, but there's a connection here; there's something here. Knowing that Chuck has lived thousands of years, more lifetimes than he can imagine, it doesn't scare him as much as he thinks it should.
This lifetime is the only one that matters to me, she said. ]
Hey, Chuck?
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Date: 2017-05-26 04:56 am (UTC)[ she knows that look. she's pretty sure she's returning that look. it makes her heart beat a little harder and her eyes are bright because she almost wants to laugh just 'cause it beats feeling nervous. but she is nervous, a little bit. she's physically tired but emotionally and mentally she's got this energy that feels like it's about to bust out of her chest. she's leaning closer, she can feel it. she's not leaning in perse but she sits up a little straighter, scoots her butt forward even though there's hardly any room there between them already with their legs where they are but she just
she wants to kiss him.
that's all she really wants.
but he has something to say and she's not going to take that away from him, even if it would be easier than waiting for things like words be said. a hey wait I think I know what you're going to say, I want to say it too, here's what I'm feeling sort of gesture so they don't have to say all those words. she bites her lip instead. that's a reasonable alternative. ]
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Date: 2017-05-26 05:19 am (UTC)[ Is it what Chuck expected to hear? Well, he has no idea.
Is he supposed to just go for it and kiss her if he wants to? He has no idea.
So he asks. He asks because it seems like the polite thing to do and he's never actually done this before, so asking permission feels like ... well, a good start.
He thinks whatever he's feeling right now is echoed in the way she touches him, the way she moves in just a fraction closer towards him (he's a wolf, he can sense the most minute movements of others), the way she's looking at him. So asking doesn't seem like an out-of-the-question request. ]
wow i don't have a smooch icon that's so weird
Date: 2017-05-26 05:48 am (UTC)he's just so cute and so sweet and so funny
and there's no pressure in any way to be something she's not. he doesn't mind that she's bossy and opinionated and overprotective. doesn't make her feel like she needs to hide those parts of her. he lets her read to him and sit close when they're studying. he studies with her.
and maybe they're still learning about each other, maybe she needs to slow her roll and be smarter than to fall head over heels in crush with the new guy. ..not so new anymore, but newish. she should know better, see the signs of when she's getting caught up in someone too quick, but she can't see it as a bad thing, not this time. she's been burned ( hah ) before, but Casey wouldn't. he's not that guy. she can feel it in every bone in her body that he wouldn't hurt her. and god, that means she can't be the one to mess this up. she's been through more than a fair share of lifetimes but she's still very capable of dropping the ball, disappointing someone. but she can't do that to him, she won't.
she won't.
she'll just keep kissing him for a little longer instead, then keep her forehead pressed to his once she does decide it's time for it to be over. still sharing his space, still playing with his hair a bit at the nape of his neck. still smiling a little bit even while she catches her breath. ]
ahhh i just need more casey icons in general but smooches are priority
Date: 2017-05-28 05:18 am (UTC)He leans in to meet her lips, letting her take the lead because she clearly knows what she's doing and he's (quickly) learning from her. It feels nice. It feels awesome, actually, his breath caught in his throat, his heart pounding in his chest like it might sprout wings and float him away.
He finds his hands winding into her hair too, his kiss deepening until they both have to come up for air. She leans her forehead against his and he almost wants to laugh; he's so elated.
Chuck is so, so amazing. He kind of wants to shout it on mountain-tops.
(But he won't. He's not going to be that embarrassing.) ]
Wow.
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Date: 2017-06-02 05:08 am (UTC)[ like she doesn't know. like she can't tell by the way he's staying close, hand in her hair. she moves her face just to bump his nose with hers, unwilling to quit being affectionate now that they've opened those floodgates. she knows she should, she actually really needs to get back to her dorm before her roommates wake up and realize she's not there, but instead she's sitting her giving eskimo kisses to the boy she likes.
she gives him another small kiss before she does sit back again, letting her hands both fall into their laps now, that shared space between them. she shakes her bangs out of her eyes, blushing a bit, but she's hoping the light is dim enough to hide it. maybe. but ah, maybe she doesn't mind if he can see it. ]
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Date: 2017-06-03 03:23 am (UTC)His fingers find hers without hesitation this time, winding into comfortable knots. He never wants to let her go. ]
Very good wow.
[ As far as first kisses go, it's definitely one for the books. He leans back against the pillows, right beside her and it's like - man, it's like he doesn't want to do anything else, he doesn't want time to pass if only so he can live in this very moment for the rest of ever. ]
I know it's gonna be morning soon but ... can you just stay here for a bit longer?